Friday, January 30, 2009

this life i call......


0ver the past time life seems to be so different. The path way to solace seems so far away and yet ones heart ponder and seek for love of ones heart. Abruptly, I look out my window as try to keep on writing but my consistency failed. The earth around me unexpectedly seemed so different but why? Everything of me so different and I really do not know what is the use of my existence. It said that when you write all your worries down it fades away literally. Your mind alas cleared and your heart stops bleeding.
As night slowly creeps on stabbing the beautiful fire of earth his majestic feature disspers between the amazing mountains. The beautiful moon appears and swank him self like no other! My heart sinks in as I close my eyes for a second an image that haunts me every night and every moment my eye lids close. A conduit through my heart bleeds like red roses petals. ”do not let go for I shall be by your side my love”, his voice so beautifully penetrate within my supple soul so gently but my mind, soul and heart is adamant and stubborn it avoids the handsome voice and drags me along with its sorrow.
Like streams and alleys my soul flows gently. A moment of joy and like I was flying, yet I am so unsure were am I leading to. Am I still alive is my beloved by my side??? What is happening to me; is it just a plain dream??? Somehow I am lost and my mind flying away. Songs singing into my ears so melodically I almost fell into into vicious trap. My dreams seems to be longer than I have ever imagined.
Night took me into an excursion so as to the wind blew I blew along it and to it seems like every word I have written has no sense or more. My tears are not to be perceived effortlessly it trickles down my cheeks and my mind fumed with unrestrained reservation. My mind soullessly wondering in the mist of this empty earth and no more is my voice to be heard as my calamity. The only voice that I hear is the nightingale whom sings so astoundingly my heart yearned for sovereignty. Thus my cries were empty they were soundless and I cried and cried yet it was arduous to reach my desire. ”if thy have a dream do not hesitate to reach for it, even if thy have to sacrifice ones love because your dream is your passage, conduit out of this miserable hell”, my love had whispered this to me one night as I lay so delicately on the bed.
Selflessly I am wondering in a place I have no clue of! every moment seems like a race. My heart racing for no reason…. My whole fuselage cold and yet I am still lost oblivious were am I to me its just a plain dream but the sensation was not right. The little sparrow so swiftly yet furiously flies across like a warning no, no, no it’s a sign from the heaven of lords are trying to tell me something that I am so unsure my mind heart is just haywire and I am lost!!!!! I want to be set free fly in the sky so freely like the sparrow!
Hence did I realize that my life was now being bragged. My lonely cadaver lay so gently on my bed as I ponder upon it. How elegantly I sleep. Numb yet so pale I see. My love embrace my soft supple veined palm. His eyes red with tears as they slowly creep down his fair cheeks. Abruptly this knock on my head made me realize that the elegant cadaver was me!!!! My sorrows slowly ends. Right here. The doors close behind me and therefore I shall never be able to see my life against. Thy duty has been fulfilled and I had lived my life to the fullest. Exquisiteness of ones life………………….

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