two tales.....he

He: You are not telling me the right reason why you broke up with him.!
She: ummmmm……you know, I have told you this before!
He: no just tell me u know that I am here for you…

He smiles at her and tries to pursue her to spill the pea. In return her mind goes blank for a moment. Suddenly it comes, she remembers every moment , those wonderful moments. Her heart starts to jump as her mind start to fail!

h….he..he…she recalls the first time he had put the signs to the fore, at first it was obscured yet I knew the signs though foolish I was to be adamant to the fact that I was in verge of the impalpable corollary. His word were as sweet as the honey of the flowers that bloom in the grasp of the almighty yet so tiny smile, the blooming that is so elegant yet its nectar so sweet that even this love of mine seems so saccharine less without its sweetness I am not me! This heart of mine yonder for more like a vampire thirst for blood! Her story begins……..
the night was cold yet his words made her warm. Her heart was broken yet he mended it so exquisitely. Her tears leased out till the end yet he reached out to set it aside. Her smile had faded yet he ran a zillion mile to catch it back. This was what he had done to capture her heart from another. The duty of her love was controlled by him. Alas he had lost what she had tried so hard to get! She was upset as love was objected by her elders, all she needed was him to say that he was there for her and that she has nothing to worry about. His presence was all that would do the magic. She loved him so much as she did work really hard to win his heart and alas he had agreed her request of love. Wondered much did she that how love could be so malevolent towards her.
As she lay, her mind recalls every incident, as to how she was forced to make the incorrect verdict , this feeling love I may say is a drug that I am deeply addicted to! Why ? why? ! do I make my self be whom I am not?! Why is it that I whom is not what is seen be so different? has love tainted me? Or am I just another victim of its ecstasy?! Till this very moment I longed for him to come back as my life is incomplete without him by thy side. I may laugh in joy, I may smile like the untwined road straight ahead, I may jump in the sky so cutely as u may proclaim, I may skip like all the heavens belong to me but this love I can not take charge. I big duty fallen from the sky and has landed on my head! Hilarious not I know .
Suddenly all the sorrow of breaking the bonds of love brought a little smile, those times when we were alone when the was nothing but the sky, the stars, the moon, the sun and just us to ourselves. He would smile so exquisitely and his touch would leave me breathless. His kiss was vague that I try and try to tell you how it was yet no reason has come forward! As he puts his arms around me wrapping me in his arms, I felt so secure that no harm was against me! I alone with him tied with a ribbon! so sweet that every night he is in my dreams the hero of my life! As he would whisper into my ears “ I am here for you okay? So do not shed a tear!” hugging me securely within his muscular arms. His love was so beautiful!
Then again should I mention him who I still ‘like’?..... we would sit on the counter and laugh our heads of stupid jokes or tickle, run around till I would catch my breath! We would lay arm in arm on the sofa talking about silly things. Yes it did brighten me up. I trusted him and so did he but I had objected every trust of his upon me! He would catch me when I would fall he would flout my existence as I was someone else yet he loved me deep down I knew that but why was he so adamant to express it to me? After all I love him, why do they all change when we are in love? The times I would call him he sounded so graceful yet his tone changed as if he had made a mistake. So, was it purely all my fault as my heart could not accept his undesirable love for me? And some one had come along who did love me as much as I did? Yet why is it so that I still love him? So complicated as it may seem yet so easy I could not had over taken this mess! Even now when I look into his eyes my heart jumps and adrenaline is all I can say.
Though how beautiful love may sound my friend yet there she comes. Destruction! She snatches him away from me and lies after lies has been uttered by those lips so soft and gentle that I kissed! Yes he had cheated me! And yes did this heartbreak, how many times should I undergo this brutality? What is it that I do not have that she has? Why was it that he had the heart to put me in a state so painful even a swords stab would not hurt as love may have done! What is an answer as “ I was going to tell you but I was waiting for the right time?” when is there time for her? You may think that I am stupid but I had found out your treacherous game my love! Why would you hang up on me at sharp 2200? You used to reply me even if I said good bye! Why was it that u had lied to me that sleepiness was your reason to be with her! Why would you have the guts to call me your wife when you treated me less than that? Oh and how cunningly you thought that I would forgive you! No! never! Over my dead body! How I tried to control my tears as you replied yes. How my heart failed to beat as the news that you bring is so hurtful. She may be fair, thin, bright pin lips carved bust and a sweet bottom in other words physically she was perfect! Though I only had a sweet smile, a flat bust, short hair, dark skin and a flat ass! It did not attract you. You just used me for your pleasure as pornography had made you mind so filthy and ugly u seem day by day! Not that it is wrong for a male to watch porn but I am not your tool to be used! My heart yearns to know what have you done in addition behind my back, backstabber! You cheated to our love, you were a coward to come front and release your foolishness to me. You did what I would say, you are not fit to commit to your rightful duty! How are you going to be a man? More to this you kissed another girl, you looked another girl! At least you should have realize that I was still with you! You have broken my heart yet you had the heart to tell me that you shall not see me if I was to break off our love! It was gods help to push you away! How I was glad that she found out and tore us apart! Are all men as such? Is there no one that can be trusted? Is chivalry dead? You still want to wait. As you know that you have made a mistake a great mistake in our love! But now its too late to amend. You had drained all the love away from me! Alas there grew hatred for you in my heart. Never can I see you as my friend nor shall I
Ever whish to!

He: I am speechless!
She: you never know how this love can be so cunning!
He: she did the same and I do not know why I still love her! she put me on a run for her love agreed but then set me aside of her heart! I can not do this anymore!

death

The soft rain seemed to make everything harder to accept. In life few seconds count as there is no escape in this outrageous life we ponder upon. As a fruit may taste so sweet, the sweetness watering your mouth as saliva escapes and that sweetness can never be elapsed , the reason for its tribute is its sweetness! No one can object these words of mine as there is something to it that is in your life.
I try to smile it away yet it is so hard for me to forget as it is scene in my mind rewinding itself mechanically! How dull, this sorrow so depressing that even the skies seem to cry out its pain loud; yet indistinct. All these years that was so beautiful so exquisite, this soft supple heart of mine can not take the soreness. Wan here did I go wrong as this sweetness still exist in this tender lips of mine and in the core of thy heart! This tears of mine cannot seem to disregard you as this sweetness that you have left behind is unbearable why did you have to wash it all away? Why did you do so when I was still here?
As they all crowded in all I can hear I banter old people and small children running about. Who is next to get married, or who is most suitable, who got divorced lately?, how do you make candy, what is the latest design, who is having an affair, well this is what that shall fall in your ears when you go for such an event , the mourning, torment so devastating ! this life is like a cycle and we go through what Is planned for us yet some do not seem to appreciate this gift so spectacular like no other.
Let the tears of mine spill as this heart shall not fail, let thy blood be within me as I know how much you love me, your exquisite feature so wonderful that my hear stopped the moment I met you! I was speechless as I struck by a flying arrow so fast that it hurt thy heart in a brink of a glimpse! Why is it so that whatever that is beautiful does not last long? Why is it that this life seems more harder than I thought, why is it that god judges us so harshly yet in a very perplexing manner. All dressed in a colour code so serene this scenery my hear t kept on thumping every moment some one enters the door. Have you ever felt that when someone you loved so much is not there and the phone rings a man says “ im sorry mrs “, the phone hangs up on your side. All of a sudden u realize that it is over and u reminiscence the moment where you talked so gaily and it was a perfect day. God yet again plays with our lives and yes we will have to follow as how it is set this what I shall articulate as ‘fate’ surprise not my friends you do not know when your end is coming.
Alas I wished that he had followed my uncle as and was not so imprudent to do ahead of our plan. Yet as his lonesome cadaver lay stranded on the dirty road this heart of mine sinks. There is no one for me to cuddle up with when I am afraid, no one to talk to, the lonely nights ahead of me sleepless those night that I hade made love to the only man I loved and adored much! This string of precious diamonds trickle gently on my cheeks. What am to tell my children? They shall not have someone to call appa! This sinks as I write, my hands trembling, this words so useless and meaningless for thy but yet I repentance not ! the greatest challenge of thy life, losing the one you love most.this funeral for him is a dreadful end no respect shown! Shall I not fall apart for this sweetness has not faded yet and shall fade for eternity.


The moonlight shine so gracefully,
Yet this heart yearns fof her long lost love to return,
The stars twinkle yet there is no one there for this exquisite maiden
To hold on,
Its ok she says, but deep down it throb so painfully!,
She does not fail as he has left her his locked up in her heart,
Thou shall the devil foolishly brag of his meaningless victory,
As their love still survives till this very day.

the reason for everything!!!you

I have to say my heart is broken, I am mindless; my mind is numb; this tears are in verge of leasing its pearls. Like a chain so beautifully seam with elegant pearls but it beauty destroyed for one reason, sadness. Just as how my tears seep on this gentle cheeks of mine. It hurts when I realize how imprudent of me. I should have seen it coming the way you looked at me, that smile of yours, the way you had changed. From your hair cut to the way you address me! Why had I not known that? You would never play chess with me like as if I was some kind of unknown being. Your severity that day had hurt me so deeply even an arrow could not accomplish, this profundity was too deep that only love can do so. I wish that you could read this before its too late. This heart of mine shall ponder on every fact that has no sense.
No matter what this bloody heart of mine is tangled with thy love. The mistake I have made so obtuse I wished and wished I never made that move. I shall blame god for his vindictiveness for putting me in such a position. Yet this blame that I have cast against the almighty lord; objected. I shall try not to cry for it is my past. As I write my fingers shudder in sorrow. My heart tells me to inform you of thy feelings but my lips will not prod, effortlessly every prod of mine is objected and yet I try even harder.
At first it was so beautiful, this feeling but I had made the wrong decision. If only I could go back to my past! I wished that u had not wished me so late for my birthday, I wished that you there for me when I needed you the most, I wish that you advised me when ever I needed it,
I wished that you showed more love than hiding it away from me. This word I type it is yet so hurtful to reminisce. I still remember on your birthday; man was I so excited to be there for you yet you preclude your self in touching me or sitting beside me but this bloody heart of mine just can not let you go!!! Insanity has ensnared me in its evilness. They say ‘you will hark back to your first love’, I object you, I can not forget why?
This tears of mine , as I coil my self effortlessly in the dark with nothing but this sadness of mine to ponder upon. Now that you are not here my heart is lonely. If only you knew that I was the right one. Now that I am not there your love for me shall fade for eternity as she has come and replaced me. Is her love true? Can she love you as how much I have? Will she give a dozen names? Will she start your conversations? Will talk to you when you need her the most? Does she love you to the same extent that your hair style does not count but your inner soul does? I wonder if now as she sleeps genuinely does she dream about you?
Love. How am I to enlighten you when all I can say is that I regret this very moment, this love that we call has no meaning to me as all the love that I have had capsulated in me is drained out, nothing but my past, sorrows are left for me to reminisce upon. no poem that can I create to tell you, no story that I can write to show you and nothing of this selfless me tell you how much I am dying inside to beloved! I may skip like a little girl, act like a monkey, smile so beautifully, laugh gracefully, speak so sophisticatedly yet I can not prevail your sweet, gentle yet fragile heart! My disquiet has come to an end but my love has not so….. the end shall come when I can disregard you, erase you, delete you like a computer! You may not answer but I before now have bring to fruition the fact that no longer am I in your heart.
I shall not be adamant and follow as what I have to do. What is to be done should be done. Long before you leave let me tell you my lord accept me. This fuselage of mine is dying inside out tearing apart!


The moon upon thy soul,
So beautiful that thy try to grasp it but fail,
So is there space in you for thy?,
Romeo and Juliet may be the story,
I shall awaken its characters,
As my love profusely pours!,
Do you not see my love?
Am I invisible?
This ghostly form of mine,
Ponders upon you,
Thou so elegantly lay,
Shall I not intrude your beauty,
So handsome do you lay,
Yet my heart bleeds,
Come to me,
Accept me,
Eccentric mind of mine for you,
Let the rain pour I shall never stop,
Let the thunder shake the earth of life
I shall not stop,
Let fire destroy,
I shall fight,
Let the moon die I shall not cry,
Let the sun be adamant I shall not forget,
Let alone you be the reason for me to stop,
For only you that I am here…..

Adapted from a true story. the end…….

valentine

It
It was this day that was so beautiful,
My heart stopped as I had my first glance at her,
Her hair so free flying along the effortless wind,
Her broad smile, concurrently with her soft lips,
This heart of mine, this breath of mine, this corpus of mine,
Blocked every step of mine,
Breathless it was till I fell,
So numb that I could not feel the coldness,

My,
This lord,
Adamant yet effortlessly,
Every word that I have tried to utter; objected,
Even the roses in thy garden had popped out to look at her beauty,
They sang as she walked,
The rain so fragile capsulated me,
Not lonely as she was there with me,
Her soft, yet supple skin was the majesty of all nature goddesses,


There,
Shall be a day where her love would be the world,
The nights of love,
The night where the moon had intruded our love,
She was equable then any other,
Her love for me; my love for her,

It shall never fade as I shall be by her side,
It shall never fade for she is here,
As I look, read, ponder on this selfless story,
She reconciles with me….
My love,
The only one,
I love you,
Happy valentines day!

she.....

I wrote this about a million times yet my heart is bleeding. WHY?!. I write this down till my heart and soul cries for solace yet there is no help offered. This heart of mine shall never capitulate perpetually. NEVER!!!! No matter how much you try to eschew me this vain heart of my does not seem to be accede to let you go. Your smile so breathtaking until my heart could not bare your beauty that it became turgid. I try to disregard you but I fail every time. That smile of yours like a lotus so exquisite I could not stop gazing at you like the sky, so calm and peaceful…….
At this point my mind is absent ….. searching for you at the bottom of my heart. I do not even know if I ought to tell you because you had said no. this my heart could not take “ IT HURTS! “, I want to tell you but my lips would not shunt. Do you not understand how I feel? You go on liking someone else when she does not even love you! Yet I am here dying begging to be by your side no matter what but you do not seem to concede the fact that you are a fool, you are just contradicting your self my love





we are not sure of sorrow,
and joy was never sure,
today will die tomorrow;
time stoops to mans lure;
and love grown faint and regretful,
sighs, and with eyes forgetful,
weeps that no loves endure,


from too much love of living,
from hope and fear set free,
I shall never disregard you my love,
Thou art my hearts songs and cadence,
The lines of thy love,
Disregard not of my love, my beloved,
For day and night is ours,
Yet lonely shall I stray, my shadow as my cohort,
let alone shall i lay, this cadaver of mine reminiscent of my pain.


When I first saw you my heart trembled I was breathless, speechless. Yet I never knew that this was love. The most powerful feeling. How imprudent of me! How could I not realize it then, every time I looked at you my mind would spin, my heart would bleed profusely and yet I could not understand my feeling for you. Why did it hurt so much?! Why did you decline this offer? What was absent in me that had made you decline? What did he have so much greater than in me?
My palms became numb like it was frozen like the whole weather around me was cold snow…… I am not envious about your love but the fact that you had put me away. Every thing that I have written here is just what I do not get . This feeling of love has made me so unearthly. You were my first love and as they say ‘ you will for eternity reminisce thy first love’ yes you may have made me weak and sick of love yet I shall never disregard thy. Like ‘under the green wood tree’, your declination has made me vigoureux by heart this soul shall never end for thee as a love is my drug and I shall never let go for the sun shines above this heavens gold an this rain pours my delicate love out and when you kiss thy beloved it shall rain and when u dance under my love, this compassionate love of mine so fragile, thou art shall never fade because I shall protect you from harm…….dance under me, your beauty is the key, your beauty is my lock, your beauty is the heart as I only see what is inside you, you may look like a atrocious yet it is your heart that counts……so shall it be the chest in my heart locked away and your love, your acquiescence to my heart, that is when this bloody heart shall break free like a pigeon so free flying in the vast blue sky so wide that it is endless to no point my destination would never come to a dead end. Yet I am convinced that this love……………….shall come to an end. Alas I had written it this story of mine or should I call it as my valentine gift to you my love…..